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What happened to good old Common Sense?

Saturday, September 24th, 2011

My husband forwarded an email to me with an unknown author. I could not have said it any better…

Today we mourn the passing of a beloved old friend, Common Sense, who has been with us for many years. No one knows for sure how old he was, since his birth records were long ago lost in bureaucratic red tape. He will be remembered as having cultivated such valuable lessons as:
  • Knowing when to come in out of the rain;
  • Why the early bird gets the worm;
  • Life isn’t always fair;
  • And maybe it was my fault.
Common Sense lived by simple, sound financial policies:
  • Don’t spend more than you can earn;
  • Adults–not children–are in charge.
His health began to deteriorate rapidly when well-intentioned but overbearing regulations were set in place:
  • Reports of a 6-year-old boy charged with sexual harassment for kissing a classmate;
  • Teens suspended from school for using mouthwash after lunch;
  • A teacher fired for reprimanding an unruly student.
Common Sense lost ground when parents attacked teachers for doing the job that they themselves had failed to do in disciplining their unruly children. It declined even further when schools were required to get parental consent to administer sun lotion or an aspirin to a student, but could not inform parents when a student became pregnant and wanted to have an abortion.
Common Sense lost the will to live as the churches became businesses and criminals received better treatment than their victims.
Common Sense took a beating when you couldn’t defend yourself from a burglar in your own home and the burglar could sue you for assault.
Common Sense finally gave up the will to live, after a woman failed to realize that a good cup of steaming coffee is hot (and should be!). She spilled the coffee in her lap, and was promptly awarded a huge settlement.
Common Sense was preceded in death by his parents Truth and Trust, his wife Discretion, his daughter Responsibility, and his son Reason. His 4 stepbrothers still survive healthier than ever:
  • Mr. I Know My Rights
  • Ms. I Want It Now
  • Mr. Someone Else Is To Blame
  • Ms. I’m A Victim.

Not many attended his funeral because so few realized he was gone…

Number of days left to live: n

Tuesday, October 5th, 2010

Today is my 14,216th day on this planet and I have got n more days left to go before I wave goodbye to life. What do I want to do with the rest of my days?

On one hand is the cliché about how precious each and every day is… Live today like there will be no other day.

On the other hand is the belief that we will never die… There are things that have to be done like go to work, take the kids to school, save for retirement, take a shower, put on clothes, etc. Then there are things that we would like to do… Lost in the have-to-be-done-mundane tasks, the things that I would like to do end up taking the back seat.

Yet, when I actually have time to do what I would like to do, I end up dilly-dallying with petty things like facebook, the stock market, the news, tarot cards…

Today, I had 2.5 hours just for myself. I have got 21 minutes left right now. What did I do in those precious hours? I ironed. Yes, I ironed my husband’s shirts. Is ironing something I like to do? No, but today it proved to be a perfect escape mechanism from having to write, which is what I say I would like to do for the rest of my life.

I came across this book review about procrastination. This is what I have exactly been doing: postponing my writing dream. The root cause? Because somewhere deep down, I believe that it does not matter—that nothing matters in this life. So why bother? I have been telling this mantra to myself for such a long time that I have come to believe it. Recently, I realized (thank goodness!) that this is not the best approach to living my life. There is something fundamentally troublesome with this way of thinking: It leads only to depression and self-destruction.

So, I told myself that I shall persevere in chasing my dream! No matter what happens in the end, the important thing is that I LIVE the rest of my days FULLY. If writing is indeed my dream, then I shall dream every day from now on. Not a day will go by without a post!

Hail to thee, my silent reader! Even though I would like to write something that will be of some value to you, I have to write for myself, because only then will I be true to myself.

Why am I writing this blog?

Monday, October 4th, 2010

I have not been able to post a single article for more than a month. I want to, but I can’t. I have some good reasons and then not so good ones.

For starters, I am discouraged, because google analytics tells me the daily average number of visitors to my blog is around 2 (so thank you if you are reading this :) for being one of those two people today). Even though all the advice I have read about setting up a blog tells me that this is to be expected—that I won’t be getting any meaningful traffic for at least 6 months if not more—I can’t help but feel disappointed. (My great big ego is wondering how people won’t flock to read all the wonderful things that I have to say…)

Then of course, there is this elephant in the room.

You see, before I started this blog, I read a bit about how to make a blog. Aside from the technicalities of setting up a blog, the real big questions were:

1. Why do I want to write a blog?

2. What am I going to write about?

I wanted to write a blog, because I wanted to write. I have been wanting to write for a long time and I thought starting with my own blog would be a great place to begin my writing career.

But then, what did I want to write about? What would be my focus?

I could not answer this one little nasty bugger.

What was I passionate about that was worth writing? Well, I had various topics swimming in my head, but I could not focus on one topic, because I did not want to focus on one topic. Yet, this was the key to creating a successful blog.

And here I am moping that I only get 2 visitors a day…

So far, my judgmental-self labels my ambitious-self as a wanna-be-writer. Crippled under the demands of my perfectionest-self, my saboteur-self has created various distractions to lure my physical-self away from my heart’s desire. Top this with the immobility created by my indecisive-self and you get the perfect recipe for failure to set up a successful blog.

Do you think there is any hope for me? Or shall I just give up?